MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS

New Year's Resolutions are nothing but new headaches to be taken care of, in the year that unfolds. Here's a list of my New Year's Resolutions...and some of that Apple has proposed.

1) I will quit flirting or even looking at other girls.

2) I will be the complete opposite of me around girls.

3) I will stop communicating with my ex's.

4) I will always remember our monthsary/anniversary.

5) I will organize my contacts, address book, important documents and my life.

6) I will check all my accounts on all social networking sites and make sure that my "Status" on all accounts are set to "In A Relationship".

7) I'm going to stop being so nice this year... I think I overdid it in 2010.

8) I will stop considering other people's feelings when they so obviously don't consider mine.

9) I will try to figure out why I "really" need 5 e-mail addresses.

10) I will take neither myself nor any of the above seriously. LOL

I am expected to adhere to seven of the given ten. Resolutions number 1, 2, 3 & 4 are mandatory..... Apple said! Or else I might not be alive to create my New Year's Resolutions for 2012.

A LETTER FROM MY GIRLFRIEND

A PANACEA FOR A TROUBLED HEART:

As I ponder in the lit room with an ashtray, a cup of coffee and a cigarette beside me, lots of things are jumbled in my mind. My writing will tell you, I am confused and troubled. I am not confused about my feelings and plans toward this man but I am confused whether he loves me as much as I love him. Because of that I feel troubled. I feel troubled because that confusion is consuming me in the way that my heart tells me that he loves me but my mind is playing its game on me. It accommodates speculations, theories of what-love-should-be, doubts, fear, judgments and what-ifs. I want somebody to tell me that I am paranoid. Oh, I want him to tell me over and over again that I don't need to worry because he is mine.

Arggghhhh.... I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to think anymore. I just hope that things will get better. I hope that GOD will make me stronger and will bring back the old confident me. I wish that GOD still listen to my prayers and make Damen and me stronger. I pray that Damen stretches his patience for me, for I am one difficult person at times. I want to be Mrs. Aniciete someday. I want us to be happy. I want my insecurities to go away so I could let his jokes pass without being too sensitive.
So many things have been mentioned here, in short, what do I really want? I want him and be happy with him. He said he loves me too. So what is the problem? Nothing. So what is my panacea for my troubled heart? Lambing... hugs and kisses. Attention, words and deeds of his assuring love for me.